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  1. It is important to have a sponcer through this step and to have opened up with that sponcer so they can see where to truth is that may be hiden to us, we are so close to our pains that we do not see them correctly, and it does take time to begin the focusing prosses. have faith ..all in Gods time not our. But dont for get to Act, The act is ours the results are Gods
  2. The 12th Step is not about Religion, and it never was, it is about the one simple fact that there is something out there that if we direct our lives towards It', Him, She, what ever,.. We will experience a change in our thinking, feeling, and perceiving, of not just us, but our surroundings and every thing. The whole world takes on a new look through new eye of Understanding, we are going through a transformation in mind, Body and Spirit. the struggles may still exist in life, but they don't seem as tough any more. We KNOW there IS a Higher Power at work in our lives. it is a Fact not a hope. for those of us that make it to the 12th step... having worked the Program Thoroughly and Honestly. there is no question. Acceptance has been one of the trade marks of our communitee and a reason that many find God here, because they are no longer waering the clock of guilt that many churches put on a person. We find a new way of life and happiness, Guilt and Shame are destructive and have no place in recovery. If you are still working through step 2,3,4, Take a long look at the persons that reach out to you in this program and ask for nothing in return, these are Addicts of all kinds that walked in here with high levels of survival skills, not trusting and no skill at truly being there for some one else. But some how and in a way that make no-sense to us in the beginning, they show us love, Unconditional love. It is proof that a Higher Power is working through other to reach us and show us just how big It' really is. -- zym
  3. I find that one of the biggest challenges in working the 12th step, is the day to day stuff that comes up in our life's. If we have been in the program for a long time, we develope a comfort zone and we can easily fall back on letting God handle every thing and start doing things our self, relying on our selfs and forgetting to have faith that what is in front of us is nothing more that an opportunity to shear with God our life's journey. After 20 + years I saw that happen to me and I had to take a seat and look hard at my self once again and admit I slowly took over my life and did every thing my way....lol...which we all know is most-likely not God way.. -- zym
  4. Marry X-mass to every one, I agree that there are those out there that just aren't ready to let go of there control ( In there minds) over every thing, But lets face it we did not come in to this program willing and able as well, and it takes some longer, and some times it take just the wright words in the order at the wright time to click some thing in them to finally look where they had not looked before. And I love seeing those moments in people. wow does it not just send chills up your spine when some one gets it after resisting for so long. I know for me it was a real kick in the pants that woke me up, and I was a hrad case. Yet I can't deny that when it happened i began to experience mind body and soul changes that did not fit any rational, logical frame work i had at the time, and that is how it is.... Coming in here we have some really screwed up ideas about life, right down to our concepts of right and wrong, and for me every thing had to change and it did, some with a fight a little kicking and a soft scream...lol So i have faith and I continue to share in meeting and life the little miracles in my life so that another may relate and open up just enough to ask ...( what did you mean by that)...lol and the door is open . all is left is the walking.. Blessing to all and Stay True To The Journey -- zym
  5. Thanks guys this is a good start. I have seen so many that come in the program and leave before they have a chance to experience this part of it, It is not about being brain washed or giving up you. It is about becoming the you, that you, that you have been protecting all these years and not feeling it was safe out side in the world to show. Once I began to let my real self out, and connect with that which I was alway connected to , just not willing to notice it. My life transformed in to a Happening that has yet to stop. I love my life now and see me and every one in it as one big family struggling to make sence out to things that just are to big some time to make sence out of...lol and that is OK. -- zym
  6. I am new to this site and have reach out to a few of the people on the site. I would like to give back what was so freely given to me, and of course hope to receive much from the over whelming numbers of persons here, we have a grand collective and I thing our experiences will help many so I would like to start with the Higher Power issue that so many have struggled with. There is some thing out there, I think many of us can agree we would most likely be dead if it weren't for some strange unexplainable thing that seem to keep happening to use just in the nick of time. I can look back on my life and see many times things that just came out of left field that did not fit any logical explanation. Some times we just ignore it, and other times we try and laugh it off, not ever finding a way to put it together in our minds. But here we are still alive and dealing with it. What ever it is. I never knew Unconditional; Love before I came in to the program and all the persons that reached out to me were the first to show me that is was possible. through them I began to see how God worked in peoples lives, and I wanted to be that way too.. and as I did a transformation in my thinking began to happen. A clarity and sometime an epiphany, would bring me into an awareness that God was working in my life, and I was beginning to experience the saying: that if I put 100% in to my one step towards God , than God would make up the other steps to reach him. Lets start here and see where this goes. -- zym